A week from today I will be 26. Ahh! Scary! For those of you reading this who have already passed up this point, I'm sure you are laughing at me thinking "You're still young what are you talking about?" But for some reason I don't want to turn 26! I feel old! Being 21,22,23,24 and even 25 - I have felt young, but all of a sudden I'm jumping towards being closer to 30, which is just weird. It hit me today at lunch. I guess I just feel like I need to do better. I want a better paying job, a bigger challenge in the career world, I want to find the love of my life (I know Daryn,I've stopped looking! Or at least I've slowed down looking haha), I would love to own my own place, buy a nicer car, possibly go back to school, travel the world and forget about everything else. I want all the normal things a 26 year old should want and have.
I've always been one to get ahead of myself. I guess that's why I feel pressure to come up in the world, not to mention living in LA tends to make you feel competitive. But, I think for my time so far I've done well. I mean I accomplished my goal out of college turning my internship into a job, I live on my own and won't go back to roommates, I own my car which feels much better then a lot of LA'ers who lease out Beamers just to floss. And no I don't have a beamer, my luxury car will be a Lexus - 2 door, sporty one in black or silver - but when I buy it I want to buy it in cash. So anyways, I'll stop venting now. I don't even know where my thoughts are going on this exact subject, I just know that it saddens me a bit to have one week left of being in my "young" twenties. And did I mention that currently, I seriously feel the need to run off to Vegas and live it up or something.
2 comments:
Your final week is honestly sooo far away. I will be the big 30 yes 30 next year and i'm just now really realizing WHO I AM, and WHO I WANT TO BE. Of coarse I thought my whole life at this point would be different. But its not so I go with the flow day by day. However this is my life and unfortunately there really are a lot of factors to why i'm not married ( do i really WANT TO BE)don't own a condo...but I do own my car, but only because some drunk asshole totaled my car and got away with it!!! The economy totally sucks. I don't even think the hookers can make a dime, ok maybe they can. But seriously if you think about how many people our age have what they have. How did they actually get there. Are they like you said from the girls of the HILLS, or did they just get lucky like SOME people we know. I think I've done so much in my life to get me were I am, but with the world the way it is, its to hard. don't be so hard on yourself for not having the love of your life or a condo. Life isn't always rainbows???something like that. But you should be just happy that you can wake up each morning and have the best day you make it be and same for the following days. Life it by bestie...i love you and go kick some corporate ass for both of us. sorry so long...guess i should blog myself...peace and happiness
u should blog! it's kinda addicting!
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