roller coaster.

life is a roller coaster.

it's crazy how one day life can finally start to feel back to normal, after a few twists and turns and then BAM! the ride just gets bigger and faster and deeper and scarier.

but that's life i guess. and yet i don't choose to sit here, gritting my teeth. i don't choose to sit here worried and scared. i hold on and ride the ride how i want too. dealing with the ups and downs and twists and turns in the way that i know how too, in the way that makes Me feel secure.

and i'll never know if it's right or if it's wrong, but i don't have much to hang onto but the bar in front of me. and in the end, if i just try to enjoy the ride and let go of that fear, i'll be okay. the ride will be smoother.

and i can easily sit here and wonder why all of a sudden this roller coaster has so many new turns, but without them, i guess, it wouldn't be half the journey.

and so...

i just try to sit back, relax, and hold on for the ride. smiling all the way through, laughing all the way through...that's how i ride the ride. it's my ride.

in His name.
i pray.
amen.