Memorial Day Weekend. Once Again.

It's funny how time flys. It truly does. I was jogging around Mission Bay earlier today, taking in the smell of delicious BBQ on the grills and jet skies around the bay, just thinking of how truly blessed I feel to be living in San Diego once again, a city that so many people flock too. I feel blessed. Which brought me to my next thought: It's funny how so much can change in a year. This time last year, I just moved into a studio apartment in Hollywood, CA. I was sick of my job, and so ready for a new change, I was barely making rent and living pay check to pay check, I had a man, who I thought was a potential "soul mate," and I felt content with life, relying on the fact of many substances worth of cocktails to make me feel that way, and the cloud nine feeling that comes along with lust and love. My world felt content.

Exactly one year later. I'm now living again in San Diego. I am a condo owner in Pacific Beach, CA...not exactly sure when or how that happened, i'm still single, but...I have a job that i'm totally happy with and even though the pay is kind of crappy, it's completely full-filling. I will soon be living 8 blocks from the beach, I have a good amount of friends in SD, but I still long to fit in with a "group" of friends, rather than people here and people there. I guess that comes with time. I still long to find more full-filling people in my life, who have depth to them and are just down to earth and real. I'm want to find love, but I guess a summer fling or two won't hurt, I'm slowly loosing touch with my LA life - that felt so complete at once, and the people I surrounded myself up there. I'm Christian, and found God 6 months ago. Althought I still enjoy a cocktail, and probably some good s-x too. I've dug a little deeper this year. I'm all for manifesting and reading about the Law of Attraction. I'm excited to take part in a "San Diego" summer once again, and do thinks like play Volleyball, Jet ski, meet cute men, and ride my bike. I'm getting fit, and am convinced I will be able to look good in a two piece this year, because I think i'm not a fan of wearing one, if you don't have the body for one. I will soon be broke again. Sometimes I feel totally content, other times I feel like I still need to find my place. It's beautiful outside. My mom has cancer.

So cheers, to the kick-off a great summer. I can't wait to host a 4th of July party. I will find new friends down here, and a man, and become closer with my family, and have time for a vacation, and pimp out my condo, and become closer to God, and live a positive life.

Funny, how times flys. Off to a BBQ.