Frustrated.

Writing a check for $1200 to live each month in a small but cute, studio in Hollywood, CA is fucking FRUSTRATING!! It saddens me that my entire pay check, (if my overtime is correct) will have to go to god damn rent. Which means the money I currently hold... which isn't much, has to last me for another two weeks. Which means here I go again pay check to fucking pay check. Things weren't always like this. I know it's my fault for not wanting a roommate, but I'm just over having one in general no matter how awesome or shitty they may or may not be. I need a better job. I need to get the fuck out of LA. One of the two.
I could be paying a mortgage in another city somewhere out in the Midwest.
And I question myself often, is all this worth it? What is all this?

Sitting here, broke. Trying to make ends meet, using my credit card for far too many things. Frustrated that I am constantly having to turn down social events and opportunities. I can't even put a major travel plan on the map for awhile. I'm annoyed. And should be. Four years of devotion and shitty checks every two weeks. I can't wait for the day....

Ugh. :-(

Anyone else feel my pain? Pay day doesn't feel like fucking pay day when your whole check has to go to rent. And the other pay checks bills and loans. I don't get it. In college I was always the head of my game, everyone loved me and all my amazing internships blah. I was sought after. Now often I feel lost in a world of chit chatter chaos and buzzing blackberries. This is the year. I swear.

Sincerely,

Annoyed. But trying to stay positive.