Los Angeles.

It's interesting the spell that LA cast's on one.

It's a love hate relationship, with a big melting pot in between,

Sometimes filled with sugar, sometimes filled with spice.

But I love it.

I spent the past 72 hours up there.

Really trying to let it sink in.

Not just get wrapped up in the everyday chaos but I dove right in.

Letting my gut feeling take over and let my mind try to rule out my emotion.

Easy to get caught up in temptation.

But at the end of the day, I feel it in me.

LA is where it happens.

I want to be a part of it again and eat, sleep, breath it.

I guess i'm a city girl, and it's okay to admit it.

Okay to want your dreams to come to true in the city of opportunities and the city of broken dreams.

What do I have to loose? I'm still young, single, fun, sassy, smart, and ready to take that city by storm just like everyone else is. I tried to be a bigger fish in a smaller pond, but it's not me. I need a pulse, and people with vision. I think I need to do it. All bullshit put aside, I think I need to move back up. I hate feeling constrained in San Diego. I hate not meshing with anyone with a similar mindset time after time, and meeting lame as men who only care about day time drinking.

And if I do this, and feel discontent after, well then so be it. But we have to manifest our own destiny. I want Los Angeles to happen. I pray for new opportunities and the the excitement of starting a new life up there, with new people. Excited to get to know some of the people I left off with better.

When in doubt, make a change.

I think I need this, i'm excited.

Now I need to get my ass into shape.

After the mini vacay.

Life is so interesting. For once, maybe I do want to take the road less taken. So what if I don't have a job right away. Is it so wrong to admit I sort of want a month of doing nothing? Just a month, that's all then an awesome job would be nice.

I realize what i'm leaving and what i'm getting into.

But Los Angeles, you are home.

San Diego, you will be there for me when i'm ready to raise kids, and settle.

So here's lookin out to the future. Excited.

Keep on thinking positive.

I'm moving back.

Yayyy :)